I don't even know how many people will really look at this but if you are please help. For a while now I have being trying to work hard and get good at competitive programming but no matter how hard I try I just can't do it. Its so obsessive that it is now at the point where I am dead suicidal and have difficulty sleeping and eating. I am trying so hard please someone help me. I don't know what to do and I am losing every part of my rating and slowly losing everything.
Please, I suck at everything in life and this is the one last thing I need for me to stay here. I am not doing this for attention but I am doing this because I need a purpose. Please if u read this please help
Hello ! I think many people go through this period in cp where "they dont see things coming their way". I think you should not take it as serious as you are.
After going through your submissions on cf, I saw that your problems mainly on cf are <= 1000 rating. You might want to try about some things little harder than that as it may help you get a broader mind view and observation skill.
In the initial stages of contests almost everyone struggles, key thing is to analyse the performance after the contest and try to see what went wrong. Also try to learn various new topics if solving problems is not helping. A local coach/classes might be best in that opinion, but you can always use the vast amount of free resources internet has to offer.
I think having friends that do cp might help. That way you open to new approaches and see how other people react and that might even help. You can join discord servers if you want to meet such people. One of such I am aware of is Errichto's server. It often has people that also willing to help in case you get stuck.
Please dont take this way, as it doesnt helps in anyways, Rather take it as a motivation to stick to it that you want to get better to it.
I dont know if this helped. But I wish you a good luck ahead, hope you do well !
P.S. Feel free to ping if any help required