I don't even know how many people will really look at this but if you are please help. For a while now I have being trying to work hard and get good at competitive programming but no matter how hard I try I just can't do it. Its so obsessive that it is now at the point where I am dead suicidal and have difficulty sleeping and eating. I am trying so hard please someone help me. I don't know what to do and I am losing every part of my rating and slowly losing everything.

Please, I suck at everything in life and this is the one last thing I need for me to stay here. I am not doing this for attention but I am doing this because I need a purpose. Please if u read this please help