For the last year I:

• could increase my rating only by 34, failing my goal to reach CM,

• lost National Olympiad at Informatics and two olympiads held by universities after a year of intensive studying,

• didn't manage to get selected for any competitive programming courses,

• haven't improved my English, haven't practiced it for years,

• haven't improved my math,

• got expelled from algorithm group for no reason (or maybe because I accused them of not preparing me for olympiads when they promised to do so, but that's another story),

I still don't understand what on earth I'm living for. I don't know anything, and I need to go to university in 6 months. I know only CP, and it turned out that I know it very bad. I know it so bad so that even my groupmates (former as i'm expelled) have made a Div3 while I'm still sitting around.

These failures always did follow me, do follow me and will do follow me, and I will always be so dumb to learn something harder than how to cin/cout.

I don't know what to do.